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guilt is haunting me. i cant help but i keep crying and crying whenever you cross my mind these days without you.

6years ago, the first day when you came up to me and talked to me, that feels so like yesterday. i can still vividly remember what you said to me. you made cry so hard after you tease me with your unintentional hurtful words outside my classroom. knowing that you actually crossed the line, you came to me and apologised remorsefully explained that you were only being mischevious. you even tried to get my number from my classmate just to say sorry again. the next moment, before we even realise, we fell in love with each other so so deeply.

knowing you is the most wondrous thing that can ever happen to me. loving you is the most amazing thing in this world. you are the one who makes me understand what true love is all about. the way you love me, the way you care for me, the genuineness comes from the deepest place in your heart. you and i share this special telepathy thingy, you always know what i want to do and i always know what you wanna say. you understand me thoroughly, you need no more than a second to answer what is my fav food my fav number my dream my hobby my fav brand my fav person(which is you). what can be better than childhood lovers? thats the sweetest(: 

i always know that you are someone with huge ego, just like me. however you let down your pride and give in to me for countless times, just because you love me. i swear no one can be as forgiving as you babyboy. no one can love me the way that you love me, and no one can make me love him like the way i loved and still loving you. i saw you at gg 2nights ago, i could tell from your eyes how broken your heart has become. surprisingly you smiled at me lightly, you smiled at me to let me know i dont have to feel bad, you smiled at me to let me know we can smile to each other this way in the future. and that smile of yours smashed my heart literally.

last night my emotions took over my senses totally, uncontrollably i started crying and confiding in mommy. i told mommy we are no longer together. i told mommy that you are the one that i love the most yet i have to let go. i told mommy that when i grow into a old lady, lying on bed spending the last minute reminiscing the life that i been through, i will think of you, think of you as the man that i love the most forever. by then, mommy's eyes were all red from holding back her tears, she said, i know exactly how you feel, because i treat him as my son, i have seen you two grew up together. i dont wish to see you two break apart too. i didnt know what to say i just cry and cry and cry..

i hope this is just a hide and seek game that god puts us through. maybe we will get together eventually one day in the near future. because your havent fulfil your promise of loving and taking care of me forever.

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i am back after a well deserved long holiday with my family. i miss yesterday, i miss the day before yesterday, i miss spending every second every minute every hour everyday with my family(: i hate today, i hate tomorrow, and i still hate the day after tomorrow): i am still glowing from my wonderful trip, but reality is such a pain. simply at the thought of reality makes me smile so much lesser. i think i just went on a bit of rant, hehe. i love my family mueh!(: (: 

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hello hello:D is there anyone here? after i stopped writing here for a year or so? hmm. i doubt so. 


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OMGOMGOMG. things are getting too creepy. after i posted the few lines above one min ago, i refered to my previous last entry that i have written here. and you know what? that entry's date was freaking 5th may 2007, and now now it is somehow coincidentally 5th may 2008. this is kind of hard to believe but yeah it is really happening. i think i should blog here instead. yes i should hehe.

Went to Bugis with Bebe and Bz few days back!

Bebe took picture of me while i was yakking at him. lol.

i heart my hair color! it is awesome! :DDDD
 



when i was at home, deciding what to wear, i took a glance at the sky. heh, there were greyish clouds everywhere! so i rummaged through my wardrobe and got myself a long sleeve dress, expecting the rain was gonna pour like mad that day. who knows i was fooled by the bogus grey clouds. when i reach bugis, the sun was scorching like mad and i had to wear shades whenever i was outdoor. prrrrft.

guess what this is! :DD